July 21, 2012

w/ ze boyfrann

Out of my Comfort Zone

June 28 was my-not-so-favorite-day in office. I even cried, out of my frustration and sadness. It was really a rough day, I can feel the stress and pressure in work and an additional factor was that an office mate told me that I'll be attending a team building the next day. I didn't want to attend the said event because it was only me and our manager who will be there because my other teammates will be busy. So I thought that I'll be a loner since I'm still new in the company and I barely know the people there. Though my new found friends during the ITO onboarding will be there, I still didn't want to go because I know that they'll be with their teammates. I've been crying the whole night because it was really out of my will to be there but no matter how many tears I cry I can't do anything because they leave me with no choice. So there the next day I woke up at around 5 in the morning because I was scheduled on the 7am bus. And just like what I expected I was alone in the bus though I see familiar faces like our hiring manager and people from my former team which was web hosting. I was a loner until the second bus, where my friends were, arrived. So there I made the most out of the team building.

They welcomed us with a banner

The view. It was a resort but we had to go down over 250 steps to Camptipolo where the adventure happened.

My friends from web hosting team

Jico, Jerel, Sir Jaybee, Chelzee, Moi, Vero and Kat. Sir Jaybee is our hiring manager. We owe him a lot because if not because of him we will still be unemployed I guess. hehe.

The activities started in the afternoon. Upon arriving Camptipolo we were already tired and perspiring because of the 250 steps on the way down.

We were grouped into 6 teams and I belong to black team, thus my black UST shirt :) I was the only girl in the team which was awkward at first but it has also its pros. 

Our first adventure was low rope course. Just by looking at the ropes hanging I know that it is really difficult to do, plus the time pressure. The ropes were formed like a spider web, x-trail and cargo net. I just couldn't imagine myself completing the course but bruises and scars couldn't be avoided of course. I'm also thankful to the boys in our team because they helped and guide me to the finish line. The second adventure was the mud slide. It was also my first time to do it. I don't even to go slides in pool because I don't have the nerve to do it and I'm really a big coward. But after doing the mud slide which I enjoyed I even wanted to go for a second round. The next thing we did was balancing log. I was really proud that I was able to cross the other edge without falling into the lagoon. Tarzan jump followed but I didn't do it since I was the only girl and they decided not to put me in danger. Hahaha. Sweet right. Mud crawl followed which made us more dirty but it was fun as well. It was really a new experience for me since I'm really not the adventurous kind of person. In fact I'm the biggest coward I know, that even with kittens I am afraid. From that activity I discovered something new from myself. I realized that I'm capable of things that I can't imagine myself in it. I didn't have pictures with our team because no one brought camera with us. But thanks to Kat for this pictures. It was from the pink team, the winning team by the way.

Pink team being informed about the rules of Tarzan Jump

Jerel "Anderson" aka Coco Martin doing Tarzan Jump

Balancing log

Tight rope

Low rope course

At the end of the day, I realized that going to the team building was not a bad idea after all. It was there that I met new friends and knew my capabilities. My teammate was right when he said that it will be my break from work and yes it was really a break that I needed. Though the next day my whole body was in pain but it was all worth it. I just had a whole body massage after which was also oh so good. I'm looking forward to more team buildings! :-)

It's the Small Joys

I'm like so "kilig" right now *and so konyo too* HAHA!! I got an advance birthday greeting from 2 of my bestest and closest friends and they never really fail to surprise me. Obviously, I'm the kind of person who's not so hard to impress, those little effort will already make me so happy. I was just not expecting a birthday greeting yet so I was surprised when I got a notification in my Facebook account. Kababawan I know, but that's me. Haha! Anyway 2 days to go and it's my birthday but I don't feel excited about it. Weird.

Crappy internet is crappy.

I know that the season finale of How I Met Your Mother was like four days ago and as much as I wanted to watch it immediately, I just couldn’t because of this crappy connection I have. Yes, I’m blaming my sun broadband. I tried buffering it last Tuesday but I always get this annoying error message, so I thought I have no choice but to wait for my friend to download it and get my own copy. It breaks my heart reading tweets about the finale; everyone had their fair share of comments regarding the episode. I felt like a loser sitting in front of my monitor feeling clueless of what had happened. I even got upset when I saw a friend in Instagram post picture of who the bride was. Oh, that bitch. I really hate spoilers. Anyways, I already have the idea of who the bride was, and actually even at the start of the season I already have a hint that it was her, it must be her :’)

So earlier today I tried my luck and started buffering the finale and with much happiness, yes I was able to watch and finish the whole episode. One thing’s for sure, the season finale was a big cliffhanger. I was like asdfghjkl.

So Robin was the bride, but what about Quinn? What about the super cute magic proposal? What happens to Ted and Victoria? All these questions in my mind made me feel more excited for the next season. I just can’t wait much longer.

HIMYM is without a doubt the funniest comedy show ever, well atleast for me. I’ve watched every episode since day one and I instantly fell in love with it as well as the characters in this series. This is one comedy show not to be missed. This is my favorite series that I never missed a single episode, next to One Tree Hill of course. I’m pretty sure that when HIMYM ends, I’ll be one of the viewers that will cry and miss the friendship of Lily, Marshall, Ted, Robin and Barney, yes especially this classical player Barney :-)

A little inspiration.

I’ve came across an old book of my brother entitled “The Purpose Driven Life” by Rick Warren. Way back my high school days, when he used to fetch me after school, I already took a hold of this book and I used to read it while on our way home. But I was not able to finish reading it because maybe I was still a little immature that time and didn’t have that deep sense of understanding about life. After how many years I found this book again in their bookshelves and I thought I might give it a second try and this time I must be able to complete the 40-day spiritual journey. I am very much grateful that I brought this book with me. The book is so well written that even the first few paragraphs already struck me; it made great impact in my perspective about life.

One thing I learned from this book is that “You are not an accident,” which is explained thoroughly in the second chapter. God prescribed every detail of our life; He planned the days of our life in advance. He left no detail to chance and He planned it all for his purpose.

One afternoon a friend sent this message through text: “Don’t run ahead of God, let Him direct your steps. He has plans and He has time. God’s clock is never early nor late. It always strikes on time.” I read the text over and over again and it realized that it actually relates to the message of that Chapter in the book. This only proves that even the smallest thing that happened to us is part of his plan; even a simple text message.  It was God’s way of reminding me not to lose hope on whatever it is that I’m going through. I just have to believe in God’s plan for me. And whenever I feel down and about to give up, I must hold on to this thought because yes, it actually helps. So, thy will be done Lord. 

The “I miss you” feeling

It has been a few months already that I’ve been getting this feeling; feelings where all I can think about is that one person that makes me smile continuously. The feeling of what he’s doing and how he’s doing without me by his side. It even left me wondering if he misses me, the way I am missing him. It always comes to a point wherein I regret the things that I’ve done in my past. I have this tendency to take for granted the people who cares for me, the people who show their love for me. I can’t seem to reciprocate their actions and intentions which give them the feeling that I don’t like them at all. With the way I treat them, I can’t expect them to stick by me forever and thus the feeling of regret taking over me. So here I am again, wishing to take back the time and wanting to have a second chance to correct the mistakes that I have done, if only I could. I hate the “I miss you” feeling, it’s just so hard for me to handle. But then again that’s reality. I can’t deny the fact that I miss the way we used to be. I miss your good morning and good night text. I miss how you flood me with your text if it took me a while to reply. I miss your phone calls. I miss our movie dates. I miss how you always made time for me. I miss you. I miss us. It is just so sad that we meet someone who means a lot to us, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go. But how am I supposed to let go and move on when every time I see you, I fall that much harder. I know that I can’t stay like this forever, I can’t be sad until the rest of my life and let the past haunt me. Time must come that I have to get rid of the old feelings to make room for the new ones. 

Life's a BEACH.

No doubt, summer is finally here and enjoying summer holidays on the beach is something I look forward to. With these kind of temperature, a family trip to the beach is very much welcome. Lately, I’ve been fantasizing about where I can spend my summer. As much as I wanted to go to the famous summer destination such as Bora or Palawan, I know I couldn’t just yet because I don’t have the luxury to spend that much money. The most convenient beach resort we had that time was at Portofino Cebu.

 It sure was a great day to spend a not-so-lazy-weekday at the beach. It was also my Kuya's birthday that time which gave us another reason to celebrate :D

Just the smell of summer can make me fall in love. I really can't swim but I am just in love with the beach.

The fine powdery white sand, crystal clear water and spectacular sunsets - - it’s just so breathtaking :)